H-U-D-A

2009-12-15T00:47:00.002+08:00

MOVED

2009-11-28T00:22:00.005+08:00

Hari Raya Haji celebration at nenek house was very fun today . I enjoyed myself very much . The cousins were always making me laugh with their stupid antics . We even can find the time to cam-whore at our nenek's bed . Hahas . And as usual , Ummairah will always be the one who take up the most space . Hehs . I love the part where the 3 of us went to Cold Storage and bought a tub of cookies and cream ice cream . To an extent that we brought spoons and eat our ice cream under the block . The weather at that point of time really captures the moment . We talk about the past and it makes me realise how each of us has change as a person . I really miss those times where we will sleepover at nenek's house and play soccer at the void deck with the guys . But it seems that civilisation and time have really caught up with us and those moments will just remain as memories . Memories that will always be remembered . Hopefully , the trip to Kl will be successful as i really need to take a break from the chaos that has been happening in my life lately .

My uncle , Cik Sany , got her sister which is my auntie , a fringe wig as a gift . Lol . Hahas . So we cousins made full use of it during the Hari Raya Haji celebration . It's a pity he had to work . Sadly , we didn't manage to get everyone in the house to put it on . But the whole process was really fun indeed and super hilarious too .

Going off to sleep soon as i'm working later .

2009-11-27T01:01:00.005+08:00

I think i think too much . I worry over things that have yet to come , wasting time lingering over the future so much that I miss out on the joys of the present . I need to stop , I need to stop being this over-analytic , paranoid little girl . I need to start to be myself again . Because I’m sick of missing out on the joys of this life worrying over such nonsense , things that may not even ever happen . Everything happens for a reason . But the hard part is finding out what that reason is . You know sometimes i feel that the biggest mistake that i could have made is to drift apart from someone who i once had the time of my life with .

Only one thing is certain . I'm going to make you miss me . And not to forget , Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all whom will be celebrating this joyous day later (:

2009-11-26T12:32:00.005+08:00

MOVED

2009-11-26T12:32:00.004+08:00

I'm sick of my current hair . I want to do something about it . I feel like chopping it , making dreadlocks , extension , rebonding , curls and it goes on . Fuck , i can't make up my mind . I'll just let my pay do the decision making . So the aniysh sia . Hahas .

Khai is coming back ! Yeah ! I hope he buy for me something there . Hahas . Miss that bitch like hell sia . Miss his stupid lame jokes and of course miss calling him names . So going to attack kgc soon .

It just get to me sometimes . And without fail , i question myself this everyday . I'm tired of everything . It's hard not knowing what will happen in the future . But that's life . It goes on . Everything i did was to get away from being hurt . I moved away from the pain in the wrong direction , one step at a time until i was so far away . And i never knew how i got there .

2009-11-24T19:42:00.008+08:00

I don't feel sorry for myself because of what you've done to me . I feel sorry for you because you were capable of doing it . Nobody can be happy all the time unless they are liars , fakes , or robots . Its not healthy to keep our hurt in or our tears. So let them flow . But once they're out , wipe them away , carve a smile on our face , and walk away from whatever or whoever that make us hurt . I just don't get it . You seems oblivious to all of your doings . Even your friend seems to notice it . Like seriously , stop being a dumb ass and start lurking around you to know what is fucking wrong . Sorry won't work this time round and you can bet on that .

Life seems pretty mundane . Its like a basic chore for me . Go school , home , work and it continues . And i have not been doing a single tutorial since semester 2 start . How bleak my future seems . I'm ready to receive a warning letter for any modules . It's like i miss too much modules that i don't even know which module i'll probably receive the letter first . Thursday and friday are the days that weaken me to the core . It's a freaking 8 am class . And hello i'm not the morning type of person . So my new resolution is to start coming for class and start studying and like duhhhh , start doing my tutorials . But like cannot make it like that . But should try .

As expected . I just receive a warning letter from school for principles of management . Luckily , i decided to open the mail box . If this letter falls upon Suhaimi hands , i die i tell you . He will nag like hell . So all the more this letter shall be my motivation to go school .

It's tough when someone special starts to ignore you , but it's even tougher to pretend that you don't mind . I just hope you feel the same way too .

2009-11-20T00:29:00.005+08:00

I miss khairul anuar hamid and the nenek darlings suddenly . It's been so long that we last went out and have a last minute meet-up at kgc . Sipping teh tarik along with the brownie . Oh gosh , saying about it already make me salivating with hunger . Shall wait for khai to come back from cebu and then we'll attack kgc and make khai story tell us about cebu . Come back soon laa bitch !

It's crazy the way you see someone for two minutes of the day , yet they were the best two minutes of your day , and you find yourself wanting the next 23 hours and 58 minutes to pass as quick as possible .

2009-11-17T13:52:00.006+08:00

I'm pissed that i can't go to esha chalet this friday due to commitments to my work . Obviously , i dont really care about my work but at the same time i dont want to get fired . It is not even 1 month yet . Going to miss out on all the fun and it really sucks ball when it was my chance to meet my foursome awesome . But never mind , i can still meet them on saturday as i'm going to rush down to sentosa early in the morning before reporting to work in the afternoon . It's a hassle but i know the trip is going to be worth it with the foursome awesome around . And humy , i'm still waiting for your high-rated box office story lol . Hahahas .

I'm feeling the jitters now . As i have to face Mr chan ( my most boring tutor for this whole semester ) and class for my speech later . I hope everything will go well for me .

2009-11-17T13:52:00.005+08:00

Wait for the boy who pursues you . The one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical . The kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person . Wait for the boy who will be your best friend . The person who will drop everything to be with you at any time of the day no matter what the circumstances . Wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other boy makes you smile , and when he smiles you know he needs you . Wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no makeup on , but appreciates it when you get all dolled up for him . And most of all , wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his universe , because obviously he's at the center of yours .

Thanks aniysh for being my listening ear (:

2009-11-12T13:08:00.003+08:00

Always be yourself . Never try to hide who you are . The only shame is to have shame . Always stand up for what you believe in . Always question what other people tell you . Never regret the past , it's a waste of time . There's a reason for everything ; every mistake , every moment of weakness , every terrible thing that has happened to you . Grow from it . The only way you can ever get the respect of others is when you show them that you respect yourself . And most importantly , do your thing and never apologize for being you . I'm taking every moment of my life a step at a time . I really dont want to regret in the future with all the decisions i made now . I can't bear the hardship as i know i'm not that strong inside . You may see me smiling , laughing and being happy but hell yeah you are wrong . How i wish i can put my troubles in a pocket with a hole in it . School is driving me nuts with all the ICAs .

2009-11-11T01:28:00.003+08:00

I have seen and felt all sides of it . I've been on the top of it and had the best feeling of my life . Been thrown down by it and been crushed on the bottom . Love is like the ocean . No matter what you do , the waves keep coming in . You can ride them , enjoy them , duck under them , go over them . Their big or small , sometimes one right after another . Sometimes you have to wait for a good one . If you dont keep your eyes open and your lungs full of air then any one of those waves will crush you . Just like in love . Its not up to you whether you sink or swim . It depends on the wave . But all I can say is , never get out of the water . You might drown but its better than never getting wet at all . I'm ready to be the girl i used to be . The one who never cried . Never got mad about dumb things . And the one girl who would never worry about being in love . Easy say , i miss myself .

2009-11-07T01:36:00.003+08:00

I understand how scissors can beat paper , and i get how a rock can beat scissors , but there's no fucking way paper can beat scissors , but there's no fucking way paper can beat rock . Is paper supposed to magically wrap around rock and leave it immobile ? Why the hell can't paper do this to scissors ? Screw scissors , why can't paper do this to people ? Why aren't sheets of college ruled notebook paper constantly suffocating students as they take notes in class ? I'll tell you why . Because paper can't beat anybody . A rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds . When i play rock paper scissors , i always choose rock . Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper i can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say , oh shit , i'm sorry , i thought paper would protect you , you asshole !

Work was a bliss . Anizah Omar made my day by visiting me at work . But obviously her main intention was to check out the sales there . Hahhas . Meet up soon babe (:

2009-11-05T01:23:00.003+08:00

Featuring Nadia wardina . And i want meet her again (:

Work was great yesterday but tiring . Imagine standing at the fitting room throughout the evening hanging clothes . I was freezing as it was fucking cold .

And i have a friend to go home with now . Her name is aisyah and she lives at ang mo supermarket there . Near or what sia ! Hahahs .

2009-11-04T00:49:00.004+08:00

Went to meet suzie with fitria yesterday . It was a last minute plan and i'm glad that fitria can make it . Nadya Wardinah was super cute and she really looks like wandi . Your life have change but you are still the old suzie that i know . Strong as ever . I hope that being a mother would change the way you live your life now . As always , we will always be here for you .

Do you know what girls really want ? They want real conversations and real love . We want cute dates together , nothing expensive . The truth is we only want to be with you . We want to hold hands and lie beneath the stars . We wanna be able to say something stupid and not worry about it . We want a guy that will love us for nothing being us . And i have faith that the person is you and that i am making a right decision .

2009-11-02T22:45:00.003+08:00

Last week , went for an interview at wingtai with ramzan and bazli . Afterwhich , i went over to suzie place as it was eons since the last time i met her . She was bored and was craving for chapati , so we head to little india to satisfy her wants . Hahas . The chapati was indeed nice and it was different from all the chapati i have ever tasted . While eating , her dad called and he wanted to meet her . So we wait for him and her other siblings to reach little india . Pipi and mamat look different . They really have grown to such a pretty and handsome young lads . Their father bought for them some stuff and we walked around mustaffa .

I was suppose to meet ira , miza and aiman at yishun but i have to cancel the plan as her father keep insisted to go makan with them before i can head home . It took us so long to decide what to eat and at last her father want go eat seafood at geylang . He ordered so much that halfway through i was bloated to the max . Hahahas . There were chilli crab , butter crab , chilli prawn , shark fin and so much more . I headed home after that while they went to mustaffa again .

On friday , zarina called me and hell yeah i get the job . Dorothy perkins at Raffles city . And i will be starting work the next day plus sunday . My colleagues were super friendly and my in-charge was my alumni at bowen . No wonder she looks familiar . Not to forget topshop and topman staff were great too . And thank god farhan was there . I'm so going to work my ass off and start saving money . I need to visit suzie again !

2009-10-26T18:13:00.003+08:00

I miss the days when the only reason you were made fun of is if you watched barney . Pluto was a planet . Eraser that has country flags on it were the things to collect . Cake & ice cream made the party great . Tag was the only physical contact with boys/girls . No one cared if you wore brand name clothing or not . Your biggest fear was the monster in the closet . You were proud of yourself when you finally jumped in the deep end . How you looked was the least of your worries . You laughed at the word sex . School was fun . You didn't even know what the word cliques meant . Happy meals filled you up . Yeah , those were the days .

Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed , who you've lost along the way , and how much of it was your fault .

2009-10-26T02:51:00.003+08:00

Khai is leaving for cebu, phillipines later for his training for SEA games . And he'll be gone for 5 fucking weeks ! Just hope that you will have a safe trip thru and fro . I'm so going to miss hurl vulgarities and having last minute meet-up session with you . Hahahs . Come back soon and we'll go to the beach together as promise . And dont forget to buy me something there okay bitch . If not i'll make you watch kal ho na ho again and i'm so going to video the part where you will burst out in tears . Hahahas . Takecare ass and call me if you can while you were there (:

" If there are any idiots in the room , will they please stand up , " said the sarcastic teacher . After a long silence , one freshman rose to his feet . " Now then mister , why do you consider yourself an idiot ?! " inquired the teacher with a sneer . " Well actually I don't , " said the student , " but I hate to see you standing up there all by yourself . "

2009-10-25T00:12:00.003+08:00

Trust is a fragile thing , once earned , it affords us tremendous freedom . But once trust is lost , it can be impossible to recover . Of course the truth is , we never know who we can trust . Those we're closest to can betray us , and total strangers can come to our rescue . In the end , most people decide to trust only themselves . It really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned . You may be deceived if you trust too much , but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough . Be very careful about who you trust as you just might find that those who you placed all your trust will in time use it as a game and hurt you . So never trust anyone other than yourself .

2009-10-24T01:29:00.003+08:00

Your Daily Horoscope: October 23, 2009
Leo Jul. 23 - Aug 22
You have a lot of power right now, Leo, but you are the only person who can make it work out is a way that benefits you. This is all about priorities now, and your life at home is something that reflects your inner state of organization. Even if you have to put your foot down, this will not cause resentments or traumas, because the planetary configurations are such that others recognize your commanding energy, and take a break from having to deal with things themselves. You know that old saying about doing a job yourself because you want it done right? Here's the proof.

Can it be any exact ?

The greatest challenge in life is to find someone who knows all your flaws and differences and yet still willingly embraces you with so much love .

2009-10-22T01:53:00.000+08:00

This is dedicated to that special someone who never give up on me when i surrender , who steals my smiles without my permission , who allowed me to dream beyond my limits and believe in taking chances , that person who accepted me as i am with my ups and downs , who listened to my crap as a valuable speech , who gave me a space to be me , who lightened my burden and cleared my confusion . Who made me his queen before i made him my knight , who built a space for me in his heart before i did , only to him and only him who showed me how relations are built to last . Distance and life could set us apart but atleast when i'll grow old i'll have a story to tell about a special someone who made everything look special in my eyes , at least when i die i know that i could live forever in someones heart as he will do forever in mine . Be happy always .

I skip school the whole day today . And yeah , it is only the first week of school . Always and forever having issues with 8 o'clock lesson .

2009-10-21T01:37:00.002+08:00

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads . Afraid , confused , without a roadmap . The choices we make in these moments can define the rest of our days . Of course when faced with the unknown , many of us would turn around and run back . But once in awhile people push on to something better . Something just beyond the pain of going on alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in . Or to give someone a second chance . Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream . Because it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are . And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be . The person you wanna be does exist on the other side of hard work , faith , and belief . And beyond the heart ache and fear of what lies ahead .

My mom always told me to remember the three L's : live, laugh and love . She always asked me which was most important and I would say live because if you don't live , then you can't laugh or love . However , she was always there to correct me and tell me love was the most important and that's because if you never find love , you'll never fully laugh or never completely understand living .

Be mine and i promise i'll be good (:

2009-10-18T01:23:00.003+08:00

Parents start you off on life but friends get you through it . I can't wait for school to start on monday but then i'm not in the mood to study at the moment . I just want to meet my favourite people that have made my days in school for the first semester a joyous one . I miss aniysh badly and i miss us having hotcakes with sausages . Miss us cursing janice through our POA tutorial and obviously miss cabuting lectures with her . I know i know . So rebellious for only a year 1 student . But what the hell . Have been this way since secondary school so might as well embrace it . Right aniysh ? Hahas .

Anyway , sorority row really scares the hell out of me . Hahas . Sorry dear for making you scared . Shall not watch that kind of movie already . But i doubt so uh . Hahs .
Went shopping with anizah on friday . And seriously TOMS shoe caught my eye . It is so unique even though it appears to look like taiji shoe at one glance . Hahas . But then i never saw anyone wear them before lol . Must really get my hands on them real soon . And lately i swear i've been window shop for footwear . Eventhough , I have bought one lately i know there's more to come . But firstly , i have to work . No work = no money = no shopping !

2009-10-15T01:41:00.003+08:00

This past weeks and months , i've learned that goodbyes will always hurt , pictures never replace being there , and memories , good or bad will bring tears to your eyes , and words will never be able to replace the feelings .

You'd better slow down . Don't dance so fast . Time is short . The music won't last . When you run so fast to get somewhere , you miss half the fun of getting there . When you worry and hurry through your day , it is like an unopened gift thrown away . Life is not a race . Do take it slower . Hear the music before the song is over.

I miss that someone badly , mhbh .

2009-10-14T02:19:00.003+08:00

500 days of summer was indeed a great movie . Making it all worthwhile was when a good friend of mine , vicky was my companion of the day . Hahahs . Dont tell me that from now onwards , everywhere we go , people will stop you and ask you to tell them a joke . Hahas . What's more , she's a friend of mine .

Timetable is out . Monday sucks ball ! 4 hours of pure accounting ! Bet i can survive even for 2 weeks ! So , it's going to be monday blues for me from now onwards . Hope that the tutor would be much more welcoming then janice . Still remember the first class of accounting i had with her . But at least i'm loving my wednesday and friday . School will end early on those days . Friday ends at 12 , thus long weekends to look forward to .

I have a sudden urge to start working . I have no more training other than school training . Might as well i earn money . And i have a feeling that thursday would be a good good day . Hehs .

2009-10-13T00:39:00.005+08:00

Sentosa outing with bestie was awesome . Had a hell lots of fun . All the photos are uploaded at facebook . Saturday went out raya with the fernvale mates . It was totally a last minute plan . And i am glad to finally meet them as its been a long time since i saw them . Thank god fitria was there . Hahahs . I spent my sunday with my sister , cousins , khai and din . Finally get to have my catch up session with khai . Weekends were great and now final countdown before school start . I am so not ready for tutorials , lectures and assignments .

2009-10-07T14:53:00.005+08:00

Let’s face it , we’ve changed , we’ve all changed . Somewhere between summer ending and school starting , we’ve all gone our own directions . Hearts were broken , friendships were diminished , and new loves started and new people came into our lives . We no longer spend all of our time together in our circle of friends ; we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all . Some of us are finding love while some of us are trying to let go . Even though we’ve changed we all know that even though we’re all finding our own place in the world that when we find love , let go of a love , or when the tears fall , or a smile spreads across our face , we’ll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens nothing will change so much that we are all not friends forever . She's the girl that i spend my day with yesterday . My bestie of all time . It really feel like old times . Another day with you this friday . Can't wait !

2009-10-07T00:51:00.003+08:00

You've been with me through it all , through the fights , loves , and broken friendships , but the thing that you've always been there for , is to make me laugh when i feel sad . We laugh until our faces turn blue , and my stomach hurts so bad i swear im growing abs . Haha . And i want you to no that i wouldnt give you away for a million dollars , because friendship means more to me then money , and a bestfriend is what you are to me . Hearing the problems we had , we are no different from each other . It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little . As we all know the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left . Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right . Friday , sentosa with bestie . Let's soak the sun and drown our sorrows away .

2009-10-06T02:28:00.003+08:00

There comes a very difficult time in your life when you take a good look at your friendships and relationships . You'll look at the ones now , the ones that were , and the ones that will never be . Every once in a while , people step up . They rise above themselves . Sometimes they surprise you . And sometimes they fall short . I guess i cant really expect too much from you . As usual , you cant deliver it . Everything seems my fault but then how long more do you need to understand the situation that we are facing and most importantly what i want . You know what ? Fuck it ! I'm hoping no more . Let the time speak for itself . Sidetrack , good luck sister for your N' levels . Stop having negative thoughts as i know you can do it . For now, i just want this sunday to come real soon as i want to meet khai and the rest .

2009-10-03T14:07:00.001+08:00

I dont feel you anymore .

2009-10-02T00:45:00.002+08:00

Don't make the same mistake I did . Don't let yourself be so angry that you stop loving , because one day you'll wake up from that anger , and the person you love will be gone . Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on , the one person who can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance , and no matter how many times you say this is their last one , you know it's a lie because there's always just one more waiting for them . The one person you know you're better off without but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside you wouldn't know what to do without them . The one person that you know doesn't deserve you but yet you choose to overlook it . Because you love him .

2009-09-26T03:23:00.005+08:00

This post will be load with pictures from the 2nd day of raya .

2009-09-23T01:57:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA (:

WILL UPLOAD PICS SOON !

2009-09-19T04:05:00.002+08:00

The most important relationship you have in your life , is the relationship you have with yourself , because no matter what happens , you will always be with yourself .

2009-09-17T23:58:00.005+08:00

My sister masai sia ! Hahhahas . And i dont know where she learn to do all that pose . Obviously not from me lol . Tomorrow maybe going out with humy to do our long desired ' Things to do ' . Hahahas . Then head to geylang with pak lupek , miza and ira . He still havent got his baju raya laa for god sake . And still has the cheek to tell me that he dont know raya is this sunday . Can you get anymore selenga than this . Suddenly i realise that i believe in karma . What i give is what i get in returned . I believe that someone can't appreciate real love till they have been burned . I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side and i believe that we don't know what we've got until we say goodbye .

2009-09-17T02:39:00.005+08:00

My brother ( thin one ) , got into a bike accident on tuesday . And it is a hit and run accident . To the fucking red car who hit my brother , you are a heartless bastard who lacks self-courage ! Coward asshole ! Dont you even have a sense of pityness ! At least stop the fucking car , help him up or even check on his injuries laa ! Fucker ! I hope you will die a terrible death and live with this guilty conscience all your life !

I was worried sick when i heard about the accident . He reach home limping and with bruises all over . And being a good sister like that , i help him applied oil to all the bruises . It is so hilariously sad ( if that makes sense ) to see him tearing with pain . Just start appreciating me more and stop treating me badly okay ass ! Hahahas .

And you better buy me a new pair of slippers as mine was an another victim of your accident !

This is my inspiration for my new hair . Counting down to Hari Raya which would be in 2 days time !

2009-09-14T01:24:00.006+08:00

I spend my saturday night with my old peeps . I was at geylang with family first to buy my baju raya . Then i have to wait for fitria , azfar and baby haiqal for like almost 2 hours sia . Now , i feel for you guys who have been the victim of my punctuality . Hahas . Meet wafi , zakiah , suriyanti and fattah at city plaza after that . Planned to break our fast at Arnold's but oh wells as usual , full house and our queue number would lead us to eat around 9 plus . Kirimsalam sudah ! So we head to haig road to eat . Bless fitria for being super friendly and super thoughtful ! Hahas . Walk around geylang after that . Wafi , being like a babi himself , bought alot of food and say that it's for his mum . I dont think so laa . Liar sia that babi ! Oit , people know laa you eat alot . Like that also want to lie . Hahahahs . We want go karaoke but too late already so we bused home . Awesome date with my friends and azfar , glad to know that you have change for the better .

Life would be great if it were backwards . You'd start out dead and get it out of the way .Then , wake up in an old age homefeeling better every day .You get kicked out for being too healthy ; go collect your pension , then when you start work , you get a gold watch on your first day . You work 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement . You drink alcohol , you party , you're generally promiscuous and you get ready for high school . You go to primary school , you become a kid , you play , you have no responsibilities , you become a baby , and then you spend your last 9 months floating peacefully in luxury , in spa-like conditions ; central heating , room service on tap , larger quarters every day . And then , you finish off as an orgasm .

2009-09-13T00:59:00.004+08:00

Fucking sick of my hair already . Changing it soon . I just hope it turns out the way i want it to . If not , sumpah i dont know what to say .

I get my hopes up so high , in terms of everything and always get hurt when they're crushed . Yet I don't want to learn a lesson from it . I like having hope .

2009-09-09T14:45:00.002+08:00

Heroes dont leap tall buildings or stop bullets with an outstretched hand . They dont wear boots and capes . They bleed and they bruise and their superpowers are as simple as listening or loving . Heroes are ordinary people who know that even if their own lives are impossibly knotted , they can untangle someone elses and hope that maybe that one act can lead someone to rescue them right back .

On Sunday , Khai and the gang pick me and my sister up to break fast together . Plan to eat at Secret Recipe , Holland V but then we couldnt find the place . So , we just ate at Thai Express . And i swear my sister had the most spicy ever dish . I dont think that thai boy can handle it also . After that , we head to dempsey hill to have our ben & jerry ice-cream . As promise , Ngap bought for me brownie with super scrumptious ice-cream on it . Kak Wany and Kak Nana join us too . And god , i love Kak Wany hair . Speaking about hair , I cant wait for this sunday laa . I'm so going to revamp my hair . Cant wait cant wait ! After buying our respective ice-creams , we head at the back of the shop so that we can seat down , enjoy the cool breeze of dempsey hill and of course our desserts . To our surprise , they took out a box and ask us to open it and it was a Jason Mraz cd for my sister for her belated birthday present . And for me , they bought me a Mercurial boot that i wanted . Awwww , that's so sweet of them and the boot fitted me . Thanks you guys for everything . For the treat , ice-cream and presents . We enjoyed every moment of it . And khai , you better buy for me something uh when you get back from Rome !

On 080809 which is yesterday , had a date with girlfriends . Went to geylang to break our fast there . We just buy food from the bazaar and sit under the block like we always do for the past few years . Walk around to look for my baju raya which i havent bought laa . I'm so going to drag umi to geylang today . After which , we head to Grandlink to have our karaoke session . It was super hilarious . We were dancing and singing our lungs out as if there's no tomorrow . And thanks you guys for the Chewy doughnuts and the presents . It was so sweet of you guys . Meet up soon again for our street soccer session .

2009-09-05T02:08:00.002+08:00

Its not up to me anymore . If you want me in your life , you'll find a way to put me there .

Just because i stopped talking to you doesnt mean i stopped caring , it just means that im not going to put myself through the pain anymore . Just because you see me love another person , doesnt mean i ever stopped loving you , it just means im done waiting for you and just because you see me having fun doesnt mean i've moved on , it just means that im taking back what you have took from me .

2009-09-03T00:20:00.006+08:00

Received a email about the F1 thingy . And we have to report for the orientation yesterday at 10 A.M . It is not confirmed yet that we will get the job as during the orientation there would be an interview . So , i wake up at 7 but only head to the shower 20 mins later . Meet ramzan at Hougang MRT station . Suppose to meet aniysh also but she will going to be late and thus she ask us to go first . During the orientation , we have to choose the sizes for the shirts and have our photo taken . I just hope that i will get the job . The pay is a bomb and come on uh it's a major event , and hell yeah i want to be a part of it .

I want go shopping as there's a lot of stuff that i want to buy . And i'm still thinking whether i should look for a job . But most probably i would as there's only left 3 league games before the season ends . And we should be having a break after that . It means also that there would be no training and i would be bored to death if i would have to stay at home .

I feel that theres a point in my life where i get tired of trying to fix everything and trying to make eveyone happy . When i finally decide to quit , its not giving up its realizing that i don't need certain people and the bullshit they bring to my life .
And ken lim sucks to the core !

2009-09-01T02:27:00.008+08:00

A relationship is like a house . When a lightbulb burns out you do not go and buy a new house , you fix the lightbulb .

It's sad when people you know become people you knew . When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life . How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now , you can barely even look at them . Oh yeah , i'm referring to you .

2009-08-30T01:20:00.016+08:00

I'm going to make a proper update .

21st August

Nur Annisa Rahim took me to eat BBQ chicken at Tamp 1 for my birthday treat . Its my first time eating there and that aniysh keep promoting it since i dont know when . Hahahs . The journey to Tampines was so hilarious laa . We were starving and even a school boy who was eating can make us drool . Desperate or what . Hahs . Upon reaching , aniysh ordered all the food . And i was like a poor little girl seating there turning around looking at other's people table . Their food damn scrumptios laa . Hahas . To cut short , the food was superb until we have no time to take pictures and until my stomach hurt so badly that i have to stop at hougang mall due to some reasons . You know i know laa okay aniysh . Hahas . Thanks babe for the treat . Love you to the highest maximum ever (:

22nd August

Its the first day of the fasting month . And so i have to stay at home and break fast together with my family and spend some time together . Luf luf came over later at night . Thanks for the gift . Even though we never get to spent the day properly , the thought of you coming over to my place all the way from sembawang really made my day . Thanks babe . Love you (:

And thanks faris , zainal and anand who came here at night to wish me happy birthday . Faris climbed the un-made roof and he was directly outside my window bed . Hahas . Thanks friend (:

24 August

Decided to break fast at elly's house . And i dont know that there's a mini celebration for me laa . Hahas . After eating the cake , we talk about the past . It's so hilarious to even reminisce about it . Elly bring out a photo album during our primary school days and it was so funny to see our so the classic face . Hahas . Everything has change from top to bottom about us . But i dont think siti has though . Hahas . I love mai hair last time . The fringe cannot make it laa mai , seriously . Haahas . Anyway , thanks for the day . It was so sweet of you guys and came to think about it , it has been at least 8 years we've known each other and our friendship still remain strong as ever .

27 August

It was the last day of exams and of course the last day of school . Here comes my 7 weeks of holiday ! Hahas . We plan to break our fast outside but due to the time constraint and all we cant decide where to eat . And so we decided to buy some drinks and snacks at cheers , board 70 and off to geylang . And yeah we break our fast inside the bus .

We eat at teh tarik cafe and i swear the nasi ayam penyek is so the spicy until i'm teary eyed sia . even ramzan after the first taste say the chilli fucking spicy . But still its nice uh . Hahs . Luf luhif came over after that and surprisingly he managed to find his way through . Hahas . The guys bought deng deng and wadeh . Thus , we have to sit at a playground while the 3 biggest pigs indulge on their food . We 43ed home and we talk about all the outings that we going to plan this hols .

Tomorrow i have training , after so long sia . Its been like 2 weeks since i've last wear my boots and i'm missing my teammates . Meeting Syahirah Jamil first to do some window shop and off we go to training . Cant wait (:

I miss you and these days have been pretty lonely without you by my side always . You are always busy with your own stuff and things really do change now . But i hope the feelings wont .

I love you. It's that simple and that complicated .

2009-08-27T01:50:00.002+08:00

Dumping my books soon to hols . Long awaited moments (:

2009-08-24T01:46:00.002+08:00

3 more papers to go ! And then i'm free . I badly want my holidays to come fast . So i can find a job and earn lots and lots of money . Dont think that i will get money during Hari Raya laa . Pfft . And how i wish POA dont exist as they can really suck balls . Fasting for 2 days now and it has been a bliss so far .

At some point we need to stop analyzing the past , stop planning the future , stop trying to figure out precisely what we feel , stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel , and just rely on , whatever happens , happens .

In a world of fakes , dare to be real .

2009-08-23T15:13:00.002+08:00

LEGALLY 18

AND

SELAMAT BERPUASA !

I"LL BLOG WHEN I HAVE THE TIME TO DO SO .

THERE'S SO MUCH TO SAY .

BUT , I'LL LIKE TO THANK EVERYBODY FOR ALL THE BEST WISHES .

APPRECIATED MUCH .

2009-08-21T02:00:00.005+08:00

Friendship is like peeing in your pants . Everyone can see , but only you can feel its warmth . I know its not really a good term to describe the kind of friendship we have but 1 thing for sure is i never intend to hurt your feelings and make you feel dejected in a way or another . I appreciate your existence as you are the kind of friend who will say nothing , grab a shovel and follow me when i show up at your door with a dead body . Even though i know that would not happen due to your aggresiveness . Hahas . Wadever it is friend , just know that i'm here and i'll always love you .

Exams is in a few hours time . And i really dont know how to express this feeling of mine in words when it comes talking about exams . But i would like to post a shoutout to all my friends who are taking their exams today or next week or the weeks to come . You guys don't need to know all the answers laa okay . No one is smart enough to ask you all the questions .

-________-

2009-08-20T01:24:00.004+08:00

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself , " I have the power to make myself happy or unhappy today . I can choose which it shall be . Yesterday is dead , tomorrow hasn't arrived yet . I have just one day , today , and I'm going to be happy in it and make full use of it ! "

This week is going to be a very hectic week including next week . Exams , fasting month and the big day itself . But i'm not looking forward to it though . There's far more better stuff to worry about than that day . I just hope i am able to cope with all the stress . Econs , marketing , POA and stats can go suck balls ! I want it to be over badly !

And i guess my wish would be to lead a happy life .

2009-08-18T23:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself , you have to know that you are a good person and a good friend . What is meant to be will end up good and what is not , won't . Relationships are worth fighting for but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting at times , people need to fight for you if they don't , you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you . Hopefully people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real , always fight . Until you can't anymore .

Love is rare , life is strange , nothing last , and people change .

2009-08-17T22:50:00.005+08:00

Fucking gorgeous heels ! I dont know why but i just love looking at pretty heels but dont dare wear them !

Make mistakes , make them twice because they are too good to only make once , forgive others and yourself , party on a weekday , party harder on the weekends , forget that you partied at all , get sick , get so sick that you don't remember you got sick , skip class , watch movies instead of doing homework , stay up all night before a final , be spontaneous , make plans , break plans , love , get attached , get jealous , fall hard , break hearts and get yours broken , cry , cry harder than you ever have , then laugh at it later , have moments you wish would never end , have moments that you wish never began , have conversations you'll never forget , have conversations without saying a word , say the wrong thing , get angry , be confused , it will all become clear . Live it and never forget it . And how i wish life would be that simple .

I've not been studying . And i need to start studying ! The best way to get something done is to begin .

2009-08-17T02:08:00.006+08:00

I just love waking up in the morning and goof around with the 3 chipmunks . After bathing , wrapped up in my towel , snatch my brother guitar and all along we were singing in my bedroom . I asked them to clap their hands and cute enough they do what they were told . We stop when my brother shout and ask me to shut the hell up . Thanks chipmunks for entertaining me . Love you chipmunks . Always thinks that i just got to take the good with the bad . Smile with the sad . Love what i've got and remember what i've had .

Things to do today:

1 - get up

2 - survive

3 - go back to bed

How i wish exams never exist :(

mhbh imy

2009-08-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

As we grow up , we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down , probably will . You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others hearts . You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them , and you'll cry because time is flying by . So take too many pictures , laugh too much , forgive freely , and love like you've never been hurt . Life comes with no guarantees , no time outs , no second chances . You just have to live life to the fullest , tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off , speak out , dance in the pouring rain , hold someone's hand , comfort a friend , fall asleep watching the sun come up , stay up late , be a flirt , and smile until your face hurts . Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all , live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back . And i want meet anizah and wafi so badly . And i learn something . I've learned that sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry , but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel .

Exam is next week :(

Legal age is coming (:

2009-08-11T00:13:00.005+08:00

I know i've said im sorry , time and time again . You deserve so much better . How i wish i can ask you to leave and dont look back . Because i know how much pain you had , all the burdens you had packed . Because as long as you're happy , it wont matter how much i cry . But then i'm too selfish to ask you to do that as i know i need you in my life .

Sorry is just not enough , to say what you mean to me . You’re a rose on the stem , you’re the moon at night , if you hold my hand , I will make it right . I promise .

The way you kiss me and make everything alright in the world .

2009-08-09T00:55:00.002+08:00

People don't play sports because its fun . Ask any athlete , most of them hate it , but they couldn't imagine their life without it . Its part of them , the love/hate relationship . Its what they live for . They live for the practices , parties , cheers , long bus rides , invitationals , free nike stuff and coaches you hate but appreciate . They live for the way it feels when they beat the other team and knowing those two extra sprints they ran in practice were worth it . They live for the way they become a family with their team , they live for the countless songs they sing in their head while training all those hours . They live for the competition , they live for the friends , the practice , the memories , the pain , its who they are . And it's who we are . I think i'll heed humy's advise , that this is not the right time . And ira say something that i have been wanting to go since last year . Hopefully , next year would be the year .

I feel for you . I know how you feel . Being there just now and seeing you tearing gets me thinking of how much passion and love you have for soccer and the team . But for you winning is not a sometime thing , it's an all time thing . You don't win once in a while , you don't do things right once in a while , you do them right all the time . And for you winning is a habit .Unfortunately , so is losing . Just know that it's not over when we are losing terribly . Its over when we quit . Seriously , for the the few of you there , if you don't have the desire to play , don't ruin it for those that do .

I miss the ' After each game , i want to be able to say : i gave it all i could, i gave it my best ' feeling .

I want to enjoy myself later as i know even though sitting next to you doing absolutely nothing , will mean absolutely everything to me .

2009-08-07T20:57:00.004+08:00

Have you ever felt so alone and nothing seems to make sense ? Well that's how i feel right now . I feel like i'm facing everything by myself with nothing but a fake smile . Sometimes we expect more from others , cause we would be willing to do that much for them . Words- 5 simple letters , yet there aren't enough to express .

Exams are coming :(

2009-08-07T01:27:00.004+08:00

I’ll go out there and make my mistakes . I’ll fall down , get hurt , cry , laugh , love , and get back up . I’ll stand on the highest mountain top and go into the deepest caverns . I'll roam across the world , visit the moon and swim in outer space . I'll let my imagination run wild and let my spirit soar . Why ? Because when my life flashes before my eyes in those final moments , I want to have something worthwhile to watch , with plenty of love and laughter , good times and bad . I don't want to regret a thing and I plan not to . Remember , it's not usually the things you do that you regret , it's the things you don't do and leave unsaid . Laugh out loud . Cry in the rain . Love with all your heart and soul . Get hurt . Tell the truth . Go crazy . But never forget that you only get one shot . One shot at this day , one shot at this minute . One shot at this age . One shot at life . So make sure your life is one you will enjoy watching in your final moments .

I dont know whether i 'm making the right decision . But ' feel the fear , do it anyway ' .

To that girlfriend of mine - It doesn't matter who dumped who or why . Whenever you see an ex with another girl , it will always bother us . Without a doubt . But then it's not because you are not over him but just because you know you used to be that girl . Don’t ever let people tell you that you aren’t good enough . Because you are . Don’t ever hide your feelings , Because someone’s willing to hear them . Don’t ever live your life in the past . Because then you’ll miss out on the now . Don’t ever let people bring you down . Because they don’t deserve to . Don’t ever run away from your problems . Because they will always find you . And lastly don’t ever let someone take away your happiness babe because it was never theirs to take .

And you know what babe , we'll never be too old for sleepovers and we need girls night often (:

2009-08-04T01:33:00.003+08:00

Finish each day and be done with it . You have done what you could . Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in , forget them as soon as you can . Tomorrow is a new day . Begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense .

Any fact facing us is not as important as our attitude toward it , for that determines our success or failure . The way you thing about a fact may defeat you before you ever do anything about it . You are overcome by the fact because you think you are . Makes sense ? I dont know what i'm talking also .

Decide what you want , decide what you are willing to exchange for it . Establish your priorities and work for it .

Our business in life is not to get ahead of others , but to get ahead of ourselves .

2009-08-03T01:21:00.003+08:00

I want play against RP later ! I want to regain my touches ! Saying all this makes me miss my secondary school days !

Be thankful that you don’t already have everything you desire . If you did , what would there be to look forward to ?

2009-07-31T01:35:00.004+08:00

We don’t look for love because it’s lonely to be watching movies alone , because it’s sad to eat meals on your own , because it’s nice to cuddle up with someone on rainy days . We look for love because we want to be accepted , for the disgusting ways you portray when you were with his friends ( burping loudly ) , for the clumsiness , for being irritating and for the simplicity in us . Love is an act of acceptance , that with all our imperfections , we are accepted and loved .

We can love someone and just be happy about it even if we know that it cannot last forever . It is not about having someone . It is not about owning a relationship , it is just about being happy because you know you have loved someone .

A friend always says - Don’t go for looks , it can deceive . Don’t go for wealth as that even fades away. Go for someone whom makes you smile because only a smile makes a dark day seem bright .

Learn to love with all your heart and accept the unlovable side of others . For anyone can love a rose , but only a great heart can include the thorns .

L . R

2009-07-27T12:43:00.008+08:00

Pictures taken during celebrating Faris birthday

Blogger has been a bitch lately .

So yeah , so much has happen lately . Econs presentation is just over and done with . Now , i have to worry about effective writing . But at least the stress has subside since marketing presentation .

Spent my weekends with non-stop football . Saturday i was at Jalan Besar stadium as we have a match against Sengkang Punggol and sadly , we lost . It was depressing indeed and that was the first time i swear i heard coach hassan shout ( the loudest i mean ) . Just hope that we will do better for our next 6 games . And i found out that middle rangers won arion 4-3 . WTF ! And now another competitor to look out for !

Sunday , we all went to National Stadium to catch the kops in action against Singapore . It was damn pack with spectators wearing liverpool jersey . So much of being a singaporean uh . Hahas . But then i can't blame them as its not always to see a mega soccer club coming over to this small homeland of ours . The atmosphere was great as it was filled with cheers and most importantly kallang wave . At one point they kept doing it and by then i was even too tired to stand up . Hahahs .

Now , i have to rush effective writing and to get it over with !

2009-07-27T01:47:00.000+08:00

NB! Cant upload pictures ! Will be back soon !

2009-07-22T22:33:00.004+08:00

I've learned in my lifetime so far that you can't help who you fall for . And no matter how hard you try and how much it hurts you everyday that you just wanna be with them or just talk to them , you never stop trying to make them happy by the little things you say or do because thats what makes your life worth going on for .

If love were a movie, you'd be a box office hit!

2009-07-19T03:16:00.009+08:00

My saturday was spent celebrating khai's belated birthday bash . Me and my sister bused down to kak shirin's place to bake the cupcakes . The cupcakes are all baked when we arrive , we just have to make the icing design like the camera and the boxing pants . The camera was the hardest to make . Thank god as bibi was there to help us and hell yeah she's good in all this . Hahas . Kak wany arrived soon after with khai's gift .

We surprised khai at cairnhill community club as he was there to watch a boxing competition . Mukhsin will be there too as he's joining the competition . That leads me to a dual purpose of going . Hahas . But we arrived late thus never get to watch mukhsin's fight . Khai was surpise to see us as we have not meet each other for quite some time now . He was about to cry though ( he told me that after i get home ) . Hahas . We talk and we stay there for quite some time before we left for arab street to have our usual hang out session at kampong glam cafe . Saw faris , zainal and biel at the club . They went with mukhsin after that to have a late dinner .

Khai's friends were mostly there also . Left around 11 plus and took a bus home with sister . Being so cool like that , there's no more bus and we have to walk home . All the way from hougang mall to hougang point . WTH HELL ! Hahahs . But it was nice as i manage to talk to my sister about some stuff and it felt good to share and giving her my point of view as a elder sister . I just hope that she don't follow the part where i show her examples to how to react when you are fighting for your rights . As people know how i usually react in that kind of situation . Hahas . Umi was nagging away as usual upon reaching home . I love you still umi .

A part of you has grown in me . I remind myself how lucky i am to have someone so special . I miss you .

2009-07-18T01:50:00.005+08:00

It is the things in common that make relationships enjoyable , but it is the little differences that make them interesting . When I think of you , what comes to mind is all the great times we've shared .You're one of those special people who make life worth living because you've taken the time to care . The most amazing feeling in the world is to look at someone you really care about and know they feel the same way about you thus you never know what you have until you lose it .

2009-07-16T10:58:00.016+08:00

HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY KHAI !

On your birthday I wish you much pleasure and joy . I hope all of your wishes come true . May each hour and minute be filled with delight . May this year bring you all the success and fulfillment your heart desires . And your birthday be perfect for you ! I'm so glad you were born , because you brighten my life and fill it with joy . You were like a brother to me . A person who loves and cares , who sees a person's need and fills it , who encourages and lifts people up , who spends energy on others rather than yourself , who touches each life who enters & makes a difference in the world . May the love you have shown to others return to you multiplied . You are the best khai ! And would always be . Just note that you are not getting older , you're getting better . Hahas . Happy birthday !

Early this morning just sucks to the core ! Like seriously . First of all , i woke up late . Thinking that my lecture starts at 10:10 , i jolly well took my time . Upon reaching school , i make an effort to outpace myself by walking extremely fast and that equals running , to tap my card . And due to the 10 mins time grace , i was relieved as time clock in was exactly 10:20 . I open the lecture hall door and make my way to the seat when that idiot badri ( lecturer ) say , " Ehk girl , get out ! " I was damn furious as i was not late . But i just get out to prevent further embarassment , as i was about to say " Ehk badri , i was on time okay ! " I went out and straight away call anisyh . And that babi is still at home . Hahas . Confidently , i tell her what happen and suddenly she laugh at me . And guess what , lecture starts at 9 ! Hahahs . That explains the situation . For that moment i was known as the girl who arrives for lecture , 30 minutes before lecture ends . Hahahs . WTF ! Anisyh can't stop laughing at me since then . Bloody swine you anisyh ! Hahs . And i swear i will double check my timetable more than twice .

Skip lecture today as we went to changi to have our lunch . That extends to slacking at changi beach playing cards and camwhoring .

2009-07-12T03:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 6TH BIRTHDAY NURUL UNAISAH SUHAIMI !

A younger sister is someone to use as a guinea-pig . Someone to send on messages to Mum . But someone who needs you . Who comes to you with bumped heads , grazed knees and tales of persecution . Someone who trusts you to defend her . Someone who thinks you know the answers to almost everything . As my sister you're a special part of all that's precious to my heart . A sister is one of the nicest things you can have ,and one of the best things you can be . Being a sister isn't a big thing , it's a million little things . The best thing about having a sister was that i always had a friend . Of the two sisters that i have , one is always the watcher and one the dancer . Surprisingly , you were the watcher . Thinking what the hell is your older sisters is doing at times . Just stop doing what the other 2 chipmunks , azhar and ipin ask you to do . They always bully you but then it was hilarious at times where you would shout and give them a piece of you . You go girl ! Just know that i'll be there for you always and that applies to the others , abang khairul , amirin and kakak ikah .

Sisters never quite forgive each other for what happened when they were five . And thank god you were 6 this year . And my dear sisterc, today's the day when I'll let you outshine me and I promise i won't get back at you for being such a terribly sweet sister ! Happy Birthday to you little sister . I love you <3

2009-07-11T15:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday , after school i went to causeway point with <3 . And guess what ? We played arcade . Hahas . It was damn funny i tell you especially the basketball thingy . Hahs . Too bad there's no ' JUMBO ' . We had fun playing that game when we were at vivocity the other time . <3 then went to training while i wait for ira to head down to training too . As usual she was forever late . And i know that sound like me too . Hahas .

I was ready to jog when Ms Tan came over and check my knee . She found it swollen and tell me not to do any running anytime this week . I was fucking piss with my knee lol . How can you be swollen again while i've been a good girl this few weeks by icing you and do all the necessary exercises . Pffft ! Now , for sure , i can't play for the first game which is on tues . I'll just hope that i'll be able to for the following games .

Yesterday was Masturah bte Jeilani birthday , HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ! We decided to surprise her a birthday bash at her house . And so after training , a few of them went with coach while me , lia and ira with nora's father . Upon reaching mas house , some of them were already there including erwin , ijal and avy . Mas took so long to reach home as she was meeting her friend at orchard after training . She finally reach home around 11 plus and then the celebration began . Pictures will be uploaded soon .

I have to leave already as <3 , jenna , levi and yanle invited me over to play bowling . Hahhas . And so i took my leave and cabbed down to sembawang mall as they are having their supper there . I swear to god the ride there was super intense for me . The cabby kept looking at me and kept interrogate me with weird question . I just kept mumbling to myself " FASTER REACH SEMBAWANG , FASTER REACH SEMBAWANG ! " Hahas . And thank god i did , safely . <3 pay for my cab fare . I know how sweet can he be right ! Hahs . After which , levi drove us to yishun safra . I sucks big time for the first game but heys , i manage to kick the rest of the butts for the second game . Especially jenna . Hahas . And somemore she's the winner for the first game . Hahs . Around 2 plus , we head home . I really had fun even though i receive a unrelenting nag from my mum . Hahas . Its all worth it though (:

Thank you for the gift . The only true gift is a portion of yourself .

2009-07-06T14:23:00.010+08:00

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty , or good , or well bred , or graceful , or intelligent , but because they are themselves . If you think you have a problem with that , please keep your comments to yourself and stop blabbering shit that are seriously not needed . Hatred is the coward's revenge for being intimidated . You are lucky enough that hatred does not live within me .

I am learning to understand rather than immediately judge or to be judged . I cannot blindly follow the crowd and accept their approach .Fortunately for me , my self-knowledge has transcended that and I have come to understand that life is best to be lived and not to be conceptualized . I am happy because I am growing daily and I am honestly not knowing where the limit lies . To be certain , every day there can be a revelation or a new discovery .

Even if your on the right track you will get run over if you just sit there .

This are some pictures taken during the flea market (:

You talk too much , eat too much macam babi , sing stupid songs about me and that's the price of love.

2009-06-25T02:26:00.014+08:00

FLEA MARKET @ MOUNT SOPHIA BOOTH AREA 5!

"Where the journey of fashion starts,"

This is a brief preview of what we are gonna sell during the flea market. Oversized tees, bomber jackets, Maxi dresses, High-wasted shorts/skirts, raglan tees, and even a couple of boho items!
Best of all, all of them are going to be BELOW $20! YES! You got that right! :D So do show your support by coming down to our booth(AREA 5) this coming Sunday (28TH JUN) from 2pm-8pm @ 7 Mt Sophia! It's located near Dhoby Ghaut MRT station, or you can simply take the two shuttle buses that will be at Dhoby Gaut taxi stand! Do visit their facebook site for more information.

"Come down and take a look, fashion run-a-way is where beauty takes place."

2009-06-22T01:45:00.003+08:00

A small getaway later . Project meet-ups coming my way and not to forget photo shoot session with bestie . And hopefully a meet up with Nur Annisa Rahim on friday . She'll do the planning as she says ' Ko rilek , ko kan chong ! ' Perangai swine ! Hahas . Khai has been bugging me to meet him for kgc . Hopefully this coming weekend okay khai and not to forget our full squad of 4 . Promise .

I barely knew you and you barely knew me . Meeting you was fate and becoming your friend was a choice . I've learned that people will forget what you said , people will forget what you did , but people will never forget how you made them feel . I feel for you but then have you ever wondered which hurts the most : saying something and wishing you had not , or saying nothing , and wishing you had ? You want an answer , i gave it to you . I feel like I am holding you back all this while . Like you're missing out on something else by hanging on with me . And I don't want you to miss a thing .

H.A

2009-06-21T04:14:00.005+08:00

It’s quite ironic that in life , the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness . Those words you say can never be more true . Realising it now can't change anything as i have fallen deeper and deeper to my own miseries . I'll find a way somehow . I'll know you will do just fine .

Never consider any one unworthy . Because you might wake up one day to realize that you have lost a diamond while you were too busy collecting stones . Life has been a bitch lately . It makes me realise so much but yet has given me so little time to make me do something about it .

Fucked up . That's how i'm feeling right now .

2009-06-17T03:03:00.008+08:00

Have been going training for 2 days straight already but too bad i'm still not fit to train yet . Its just a date with Miss Tan . She's been helping a lot so far . Giving me advices and massages . But sitting at the side there looking at my teammates train was really depressing . I rather train my ass off than sitting , pondering over my knee . I'm so gonna to listen to her and be discipline this few weeks and be ready for POL-ITE .

Woohoo ! Seoul Garden later :) I just can't wait to meet the rest . It's been a long time since we hang out !

I could search my whole life through and through but can never find another you .

2009-06-16T03:01:00.001+08:00

The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most , won't hurt you again .

2009-06-15T00:29:00.004+08:00

Term break is here but i dont feel like it . I just spent my weekends at home . Yaa , surprise it may seems . ICA1 is a bummer and i dont wish to even start talking about it . National training is back and it seems pretty intensive now . Everyday except for friday and this goes on for 2 weeks . After which , back to our usual training days . So , pretty obvious , that is how i'm going to spent my holidays . Not to forget school training too . I have abandoned my school training since my knee injury . It hasn't really recover yet but then i just have to force myself . I can't afford to miss playing with my teams for pol-ite .

To add to the packed schedules for my holidays , i have 3 projects to be completed . WTF ! Defeat the purpose of having a term break right ? So this is what i'm going to do during my hols . But i'm so going to squeeze in a day out with my friends .

This thing has been bugging me and i just can't stop thinking about it . I know it means a lot to me but then i need to start thinking about my future . I just can't continue doing this when the feeling ain't the same anymore . I'm the one who makes the decision to be in it but then things change as you get older . What you think will never change will somehow change one way or another . How grateful am i to you as you bring me to where am i now . I'm still thinking though .

2009-06-11T01:10:00.003+08:00

I've turn into a nerd lately . Thanks ehk elly kai for your ' nerd alert ! ' label . Hahas . I've been mugging 2 days straight . Be it in school or home . For a record , i have spent most of my time in the school library this week . Hahas . I know , of all places uh . 1 paper down and just 2 more papers to go ! A special shout out to Lutfi Razak :) Thanks for teaching me stats , even though you feel shitty as you just realise that you should have done better for your own test :) Muahahahahs . And now i just sounded like annisa rahim . Hahahs .

Anyhoo , Sports and exercise science is such a boring module to study ! How am i suppose to remember all that lame shit seh . I dont even want to start talking about POA . The name of the tutor alone can just make me nauseous .

Thought of studying POA with Jeremy Lee and Avinash Kumar but then i found out that there's a team reunion plus meeting session with coach at Jalan Besar Stadium . And now i dont know what to do . I'll miss out all the fun with my teammates if i went for the study session but then i'll suffer later during my POA test , as i dont know anything shit about that stupid module . WTF ! We'll see how it goes then ! Bummer !

2009-06-05T23:24:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY
NURANIZAH OMAR

I want to wish my best buddy , Nur Anizah Bte Omar , a very Happy 18th birthday ! I can't believe that you turn legal first . Now that you are legal already , stop complaining and whining about not being able to go clubbing and all okay babe ! Hahahs . Meeting you later and so i hope you will enjoy this day as you only turn 18 once . Just remember that age appears to be best in some things . Old wood best to burn . Old books best to read . Old rice best to eat and old friends best to keep . Friendship is about bringing out the positive when everything seems negative , being accepted for who you are , being able to pick up right where you left off , sharing , talking , and laughing . Friendship is about us , and for that I'm grateful . And I hope you have the best birthday ever , friend !

Now , i want to talk about school . Macroeconomics and effective paper are done and that left me with 3 more papers . And to make it worse it is on 3 consecutive days . WTF ! I really have to stop procrastinating and study my ass off for this 3 papers . Even though 1 of them was POA , the most hated module of all . Seriously , i need to do some soul searching and fell in love with this module even if it takes me seing janice every tuesday .

My knee is failing on me again . As when i thought everything is okay , but sadly , it's beyond okay . Went for training on thursday as my leg is itching to kick some balls . I am able to run and all but when it came to kicking , my knee just hurt so badly . Sadly , coach ask me to rest throughout the training session . I feel so helpless , sitting at the stand there seeing the girls train . The feeling just sucks . To think that i can recover before POL-ITE starts just seem so dim . I'm just hoping for a miracle to happen . As for now , i just want to recover as fast as possible so that i can start training with the team soon . Please please please just don't fail on me .

Put that aside , i have been a happy kid this week though . Even though exams is around the corner . Me and thai boy is still able to sneak in 2 movies in a week . Hahahs . NATM2 was hilarious but i just can't help it but to doze off at some part of the movie . Can't help it uh . School make me lethargic and sleepy . Terminator was superb . The movie was so action pact that it makes me jump out of my seat at times . Hahahs . Thanks ehk thai boy (:

2009-05-26T19:56:00.008+08:00

OH GOD ! Its been like eon years since i updated this blog .

That does not mean that there's nothing interesting to update about . I'm just super plain lazy . Hahahs . Everyday seems a bliss for me but as a start after a long time of not updating , i will start it off by telling you guys that i twisted my knee . WTF ! I know .

Plan not to go to school but then attendance is so important that i have to attend school no matter what . And so i called my life line . Louis Leow Ling How . Hahah . You ask me to call you if i need help and so i did . I ask him to pick me up and sent me to school since he just got his license and furthermore we start school at 9 . Hahahs . Thanks ehk friend even though i have to walk from south canteen to macs with my helpless leg . Hahas .

To make things worse i'm limping around school . Thank god there's my friend to help me . To mukhsin and faris thanks alot ar ehk for carrying me from toilet to class . Fucking embarass seh . And i kept shouting and laughing till mukhsin ask me to shut up . That's not all , they even carry me to lutfi class which is only opposite our class . The teacher came out and step scold only but that sarah go close the door while she's scolding . Hahahs . Super pathetic i know . But sure do , it made my day .

2 hours of school tomorrow . More pathetic seh . But then i'll be heading to RP after that to watch the finals . Bowen against siglap . Wah ! Miss those days sia . It sure feels weird to be sitting at the sidelines with humy to watch the game . Can't wait to see humy and the rest ! It's been ages and there's so much to talk about to that nurse of mine (:

Pray hard that i am able to recover before pol-ite starts . I want to play for school lol . And i want to meet humy in the field again but now in a different situation as we are no longer playing alongside each other . And i'm so not gonna be soft on you humy !

2009-04-19T17:46:00.007+08:00

Coursemate and the OGLs
SW0902

School start tomorrow and hell yeah i'm not ready for it . Like serious shit lol . But 1 thing for sure is that i love my classmate and coursemate . They are a bunch of fun and crazy people i tell you . Hahas .

I'm lucky enough to be in SW0902 , as we are the loudest class among all the classes in business school . The 2 day orientation that i went really was fun . During that 2 day , we really get along well and the bond has started to build up since then .

On the first day of orientation , the first person that i talk to was wan . He look so sombong uh at first but afer a while , he's one hilarios jerk . Hahas . Then i started to mingle with the rest like felicia , jessica , zul ( i thought he was chinese lol ) , farhanah , jinwan and tracy ( craziest among all ) . They are all fun people and it felt good to be around them . During lunctime , i met nur annisa rahim and faris . Hahas . Great people sia they all . The orientation was boring uh but knowing that i'm in the best class with a bunch of cool people just made my day .

Second day of orientation was fun . We played alot of games and the most gerek one was the water activity . We keep finding opportunities to make people wet by throwing water bombs . Now , i'm just hoping for the best throughout my life at NYP lol . Hahas . 3 years at this school will really take a toll on me some day . Just wait and see . Wish me all the best yar for the first day of school . And for humy and shikin , best of luck . I so gonna miss going to training with humy . Hahas .

On that note , i want to congratulate my brother Khairul Anwar Bin Suhaimi for getting your first bike . Hahas . Please drive safe and i want you to give me a ride whenever i want to . Hahas . And please stop causing us misery okay brother and change for the best as now you just get what you wanted .

2009-04-03T14:12:00.004+08:00

Meeting the satufamili peeps later after training . At last we are meeting up after so long huh . Hahas . Hope that most of them turn up as we have a lot of catching up to do .

In a few hours time i'm off to training but yet i havent pack my stuff and eat my lunch . Hahas . How pathetic can i be right .

Anyhoots , hope to meet that someone sooner or later .

Sometimes , no matter how much faith we have, we lose people .
But you never forget them . And sometimes , it's those memories that give us the strengh to go on .

2009-04-03T01:17:00.005+08:00

DEAD ! Yaa , i know that my blog has been long dead with lack of updates . I'm not going to say that i'm busy but to be honest i'm just plain lazy . Hahas . I know it's too little too late to post a shout out but i want to wish my precious love that is my umi , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! You are the love of my life and nothing in this world can ever replace you . I so adored you that you has been the biggest inspiration in my life and everything i do in life , i think of you . Without you , bajarai 's family is nothing and this family of ours wont be flooded with love . You have been the back bone and the main figure in our family . And thus we love and appreciate you .

And not to forget to my another march baby , Siti Humairah bte minalah . HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ! Hope you enjoy that big day of yours . Hahas . I would love to post the look on your face when we ' serbu ' your house that fateful day of 11 march but too bad the pictures is with efy . Hahas . I do really hope you enjoy that day especially the birthday card that has been writen just for you . Hahs . Love you babe :)

So much has happen but yet there's no words , phrases or sentences that can truly convey this story . The month of march has just flew by and april just takes its place . School starting real soon and thus a new chapter will be unfold . Am i ready ? Frankly speaking , hell yeah i'm not but at the same time i just cant wait to meet my future . I truly live by ' learn from yesterday , love for today and hope for tomorrow ' .

It's quite ironic in life , the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness . If you by chance read this blog , this is dedicated just for you . Thanks for being there for me in this past chapter of my life .

2009-03-01T02:05:00.003+08:00

Supposedly yesterday we had a match against police team but due to the incessant raining followed by the thunder , the match was cancelled . Beforehand , meet with humy at Ang Mo Kio station before meeting the rest of the team at Choa Chu Kang . While waiting for the rain to stop , that ' someone ' suddenly started blabbering about friday's match where me and humy went to watch the bowen game . She kept emphasising about behaving appropriately and stuff like that to coach as though me and humy have done something wrong . We were so pissed off that we talk ' F ' language to vent our frustration . It was so funny that we kept laughing . When she notice that nobody is listening to her and are making fun of her , she change her next target to chris and valerie . She's so pathetic sia . If dont have topic to talk about then might as well shut your gap laa . Don't try to make me and humy look bad in the coach eyes . Thank god coach back us up . Seriously , nobody knew us better than him . Thanks alot luh coach . After that incidence , we now know her bloody darn true colours .

Since the match was abandoned , we decided to have our late lunch together at causeway point . But at last it only end up with me , miza and ira as humy and amy had other plans . Decided to eat burger king but due to the crowd we just decided to eat at banquet . And then have our desserts at mac . We manage to share some stories and overall it was fun hanging out with them . Not only it tighten our team bonding but our friendship too . Home sweet home after that .

Can't wait to meet you later babe .

2009-02-20T01:16:00.003+08:00

I know i know . Its been decades since my last post . Like seriously , i've been very busy with loads of stuff . There's just so much stuff happening around me that i cant even keep track of time . As far as i'm concern is that now , i'll be not that busy anymore as i'm currently unemployed . Hahas . Yaa , you heard it right . I'm not working anymore . So , i'm just busy with national trainings so far .

On saturday , we have a satufamili picnic at pasir ris park . Met up with kak wany at our nenek's house first to make sandwiches and then cab down to tampines mall to pick wawa up and where we head straight to pasir ris . We had a wonderful day together . The laughter and the fun we had were enough to make my day . Seriously , we cant get enough of each other . Hahas . Played twister which was super hilarious with makcik masa on my team . And then we played dog and bone and charades . The marshalls bought shiqien a cake as it was her birthday that day . Sabo-ed her with flour , eggs and water . Overall , we had a great day . Thanks hidayah and azira for sending us back home . Pictures will be uploaded soon .

Love , what do you say ?
How do i slow down ?
I'm running on an empty .
I've gotta find someway to fumble through this new hearthache .
It's torn me apart .
Lovesick mistake .
I'm glad you are mine now as i know it was a mistake last time .

what a night!

2009-01-18T03:18:00.012+08:00

Yesterday was a great day as my day was packed with stuff to do . Early in the morning , went to SSC to play soccer with the girls . The initial plan was to go swimming after that but i guess everybody was too tired for that . Went back home which then i have to get ready for the final shooting for satufamili . It was the final and all the team have to come down for support i think . As usual , we were late to meet the cousins as my sister just came back from school . We met up at marina bay which then we took the shuttle bus to marina barrage .

I was so glad to meet boyan junior and the rest of the team . The bond we had was great i tell you . We were like hugging and hugging each other throughout the day seh . Hahas . At last we get to meet with team masa and yai2 . We've been wanting to know them as we never even get the chance to meet or even talk to each other for this past seven weeks of shooting .

The shooting was quite tiring as we have to stand there and keep cheering . The incessant retake was irritating but sure enough when you were in a production , that always happened .

Congratulations to the winner of the race ! You guys were absolutely great sia the whole episode thus you all deserve the $10.000 . I was ecstatic when you guys won because both of our team have shared a bond since we first met . Congrats !

After the shoot ends , we production team suddenly went wild . Hahas . There's picture taken all over the place where teams rushing to get pictures with the other teams and the production crew . It was chaotic but damn fun i tell you . Hahas . The sabo-ing part was fun though . Happy belated birthday kak nurul and not to forget our birthday boy for today , Azhar from boys 2 men . Can't believe you were that old sia . Hahas .

Earlier on , we had plan to go to arab street to sheesha and had our supper . Kak nana wanted to treat me for the results i get for my o's . We asked khai and farhan to tag along also . We reached there first as they had to go to the office to put their stuffs . So , we ate and started playing ' snap ' . Hahas . As usual , they were annoyed with my loudness . Get used to it girls ! Hahas . They joined us and we slacked till the wee hours .

Till then , home sweet home .

Sorry anizah for not replying your msg , my prepaid low laa babe . Will call you .

P.S Pictures during the shooting will be posted once i get my hands on them

done with you

2009-01-16T15:55:00.009+08:00

This week has been hectic so far . Results are out and crucial choices have to be made . Has been going around poly to apply for all kind of admissions with anizah as a back-up . As far as i'm concern , i have to get ready before they gave me some stupid courses that i'm not familiar with . I'm just hoping for the best as my future is at stake .

As for now , i'm savouring every moment that i had now to spent with my family and beloved friends . I have to start going for work as i have been a very naughty employee this few days . And maybe , just maybe , I'm going to receive a warning letter soon . Hahas .

A shout out for those who had done badly , don't give up and always have faith as that's the only thing that can make us move on somehow .

Anizah , wafi and mas we need to go out pronto and to forget all this mess and just have fun and take crazy photos alright . See you guys soon :)

And as promise and a little something from me for you guys . Enjoy ! Hahas .

2009-01-01T23:35:00.003+08:00

Its the beginning of a new year . This is where new resolutions are being made and where a new start to a new era . 2008 have long gone but memories and experiences that has been built and collected will still stay on . 2008 have been a challenging year for me so far , having to deal with different sorts of problems that usually occurs in a teenage life . So far , proud of myself to overcome this boundaries with poise . Even though , there's some bad moves , regret is not an option as i know where that will lead me to . Now , cheers for the year 2009 . Wishing day and night that this new year would be a better year for me and most importantly , surrounded by loved ones .

nenek's darlings

2008-12-09T01:58:00.003+08:00

Today , i will officially begin my first day working at tampines mall . Seriously , it's going to be a long day for me .

Celebrated hari raya haji at my grandmother house a few hours ago . It was so much fun to be back there and meet my cousins again . The nasi tomato that my grandmother cook were so delicious that i have to be back at the kitchen a few times for more . After that we head to our auntie house . Her house was so beautiful . What do you expect right from a terrace house ? We had a barbecue session going on and the food were too much to handle . Upon reaching 11 , we quickly went back to our nenek house as all of us wanted to catch the finale of amazing race . I was jumping in excitement when nick and starr won the 1 million dollar as they were superbly great throughout the race . I have been a fan since the race started . When the clock strike 12 , home sweet home .

Can't wait for the shooting that will be held this thursday and friday . A 2 whole day shooting . It's going to be a hectic day , trust me .

2008-12-04T00:33:00.003+08:00

At last , i've ended my search for a job . Like seriously , it is so tormenting . I just hope that i can met great colleagues when i start work . I really need a socialised environment . If not i just stir something up to make one .

I'm quite lazy to upload pictures from the KL trip but don't worry i will do it soon . Wafi has been pestering about them lately . I really had fun there . Late night talk with wafi and anizah , lots of eating , cam-whoring and best of all tons of shopping bag . Hahas . Me and anizah were running around the shopping mall looking for things to buy for each of our family members . The incident at the underwear shop was damn hilarious . Should not update further . Hahas .

My uncle have offered me a deal that i can't resist . He ask me to take out my old extensions in exchange for a new one but for that to happen he ask me to modeled for his friend bridal company . Like seriously , what kind of deal is that . I havent yet gave him the answer but i thought of taking the money to do my new extensions first and backing him out during the photoshoot session .

Tomorrow my whole family are heading to our grandmother's house to watch the ' satufamili ' show together . I'm scared actually to watch the show as i know there's going to be tons of unglam shots .

I miss going out with anizah and wafi . I miss those days where we dress out and cam-whore . Just have to sneak one of these days for a day out .

2008-11-26T01:52:00.003+08:00

I'm leaving for KL in like hours time and here i am blogging instead of continue packing . I can't wait for the trip as there's so much stuff that i am looking forward too . One such stuff is having to sleep with Nuranizah bte ' i don't know' ( azman maybe ) . Hahas . And having Muhd wafiuddin bin Bakri as company , like hell who can't wait . Will update with lots of pictures and details when i came back from the trip .

Watch me at suria this thursday at .
Wait for persada seni to appear where my team
would appear . Hahas . What a waste that i can't watch .
Nevermind , hope can still watch it at the hotel . Just don't
forget to watch me , 4 december for the real thing . I'm not that
sure what time the show is tuning in . Promise me that you don't laugh
as there maybe some stupid or clumsy stuff that i do .

2008-11-15T12:28:00.008+08:00

I'm so excited . Our team get selected for the reality show ' satufamili' that will be aired in suria which i don't know when . Tomorrow is the photoshoot everything . I can't wait !

Yesterday had a date with anizah and wafi . We went to do my hair first and then head to orchard . Managed to apply for ' pull and bear ' . Hope to hear from them soon . Then , we head to fox where we met this great lady , Farah . She's so friendly . Like wafi say ' Old friends go and new one came ' . It is so true wafi . Met Carol where we cam-whored at Heeren . Walk all the way to dhoby ghaut where we slacked at Cathay starbucks . Head home then for an early night .

2008-11-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

Had a great day today . We was late for the interview thingy at hong kah community centre . My cousins was damn furious but they know we know ' janji melayu ' . Hahas . Imagine waiting for my sister to came back from school is like waiting for money to drop from the sky . Lucky enough bukit gombak mrt station is accessible from my house . Upon reaching there , there was like so many teams waiting for their turn to be interviewed . There were teams that consist of parents and their 2 children , 4 siblings and so on . We were like the only team that doesn't consist any manpower .
After filling all the forms required , we have to wait anxiously for our turn . We kept practicing our cheer as we are required to have one . It was so apprehensive that we even couldn't even think . Laughter and people shouting can be heard even from outside the audition room . Stupid stuff keep winding through our head like are we suppose to act , dance or do anything stupid ? The atmosphere there was so tense .
The previous team went out and it's our turn . My face suddenly went blank . We went in and there's like 6 people inside including the host and seri wahyuni jais . And there's camera . I was like ' WTF ' .
They ask us question and how are we related and so on . There's one part where they ask who's the laziest among us and like duh , i point to my sister . Hahas . She was dumb-strucked as she knew she were the laziest among us . Hahs . Serve her right ! But it was embarassing when they ask who's the 'blur queen' which is obviously everybody pointed at me .
After that we play a game to see how well we communicate as a team and how well we work together . The game was fun and indeed hilarious . And of course we sisters were the loudest .
Before i knew it , the interview was over . They talk to us and that's it . I'm seriously hoping that we will get selected . Can't you imagine winning $10.000 ? I'll die of envy if other teams get it . Hahas . Just hoping to hear the good news .
When we went out of the audition room , the host were standing outside . Then , he asked whether we were interested in acting . I was not so keen as i know i'm not interested . My cousins obviously were . He take down our number and told us that he will contact us soon . I was totally not into it that much .
We then head to vivocity to catch the movie ' Record ' but the ticket were selling fast and thus we decided to give it a miss . Had our stomach fill in and was joined by anizah and wafi . My cousins and sister decided to slack at starbucks so me , anizah and wafi decided to head to town . Went to far east and me and anizah bought some bangles ( latest addiction ) . Window shopping all the way until went to gloria jeans where love join us . He treat me drinks and a cake . That stupid girl from gloria jeans recommend me this drink and it was pure ' ewww ' . Should have not listen to her .
We slack and talk some stuff . Headed home then where we meet my sister at dhoby ghaut . My legs were feebling and if they could talk they would be complaining about why am i always going out . And then i would answer ' my mother never even complain , so why must you ? ' Hahas . Then back to dreamland .

Memories rushed through my brain . It's starting to hit me that now you're not with me . I realize i made a mistake . I thought that we both needed some space but i just let the chance go to waste . It's so crystal clear now that i don't need you here now . We had some good times didn't we , i know i won't forget that but we had some bad times and that's time i wish i could get back . You been around me long enough to know that now it's over .

2008-11-12T01:43:00.002+08:00

Officially , i declare that O'levels are over ! Like finally ! Hahas . The day that i've been waiting for has arrive . Who couldn't be happier ?
It was such a relief when the last paper had just been handed in . The butterflies are long gone and times ahead just keep winding through my head .
Supposedly after that we were supposed to go out but there's this two little pigs backfired and decided to have a short nap which turn out to be a LONG nap . Seriously , what more can you expect from anizah and wafi right ? Hahas .
But , i met up with him instead . I so miss him so much . We went shopping and he bought me stuff that i've been wanting like for the past few months . Thanks babe !
Todays schedules is damn hectic . In the afternoon , have to go for an interview at mediacorp for the competition thingy that we are joining . We were like so nervous but things has to be done anyway . Can't wait what is in store for us today . After that , meeting with anizah and wafi . Hope it works out or not i'll skin you both alive .

Days have been great without you lately and i wish it continues that way . I'm happy with where i stand in the crowd right now . Lets remain this way but do know that memories of you do stay vividly in my mind . You are one soul that will truly remains in my heart .

2008-11-10T13:11:00.010+08:00

Friday

It was job hunting day . As usual , wafi was late . But , this time it was reasonable ( due to prayers ) . Went to anizah house first and did lots of cam-whoring . It spells F-U-N . Hahas . After that we went to meet wafi at hougang mrt station . Head to Plaza Singapura , Cathay and Orchard after that . End up from cotton on , La senza , Lacoste , Adidas and Billabong . It was so tiring walking around looking for fun jobs to last us the whole summer . We even manage to have a break and went to marks & spencer , bought cookies , which we spent eating while we were filling in the forms . Then , that somebody wanted to do her hair and so we headed to city plaza just for that . I even manage to do something for my hair . Hahas . Will do it again once papers are over . After all the hair thingy is done , we head to bugis to have our dinner at tong seng . Anizah had to head home after that and wafi accompany me for a mini shopping . Bought some stuff and home sweet home . Upon reaching home , my sister show me a form . I was so shocked . A few days ago , we were watching tv then there's an advertisement at suria . It is about this competition thingy where a group of four consisting of only family members have to walk all over singapore , completing challenges ahead . Then we were like have an urge to join and my sister was very keen about it . And so it looks that we were joining . Hahas . The date line is today which my cousin will be helping to submit them . The members were kak wany , my sister , me and kak hani .

Friday pictures

2008-10-31T07:48:00.002+08:00

I don't know why i'm up at this hour . I should be under my blanket , sleeping and dreaming shiokly ! I have been feeling perturbation and jitters since yesterday . Just can't figured it why . Next week is going to be a stressful 3-day for me . I'm having papers during those days which is social studies (not looking good at all) , FNN (hoping for a betterment) and MT paper (A1 please be mine again) . I know you know , its super major !

I feel bad for not sending her off . I just feel so exhausted after maths paper 2 that i'm feeling sick suddenly . Imagine sitting at that chair for 2 hours 30 minutes , doing nothing but continuously writing and at the same time trying to ooze out my thinking cells , urge them not to fail me . How tiring can that be ? But , nonetheless , i don't feel that dejected as i get to meet you the night before . You even teach me maths and touchingly , we even get to share a hug before you go . Seriously , i can feel your love . Hahas . But , heys , tell you , you go with class babe . Riding away in your ideal bicycle with your knight waiting for you . So classic ! Hahas . I should have took pictures of you both . On that note , have a safe journey thru and fro !

I should have been there if not for you ! You know who !

2008-10-25T01:40:00.016+08:00

Today has been highly dramatic . There's just too many things that keep running at my head . I have equivocal feelings . I'm feeling very apprehensive , cold sweat about math paper 1 today and feeling very downcast about him leaving me for tekong . He's already gone to serve the country and do justice . If not for the paper , i could just have gone with his family to sent him there but there's nothing i can do about it . Furthermore , he'll be back this sunday due to deepavali on monday . I'm anxious about his new look . Hahas . Without doubt , i'm going to have a big laugh at him when i see him go hairless . Just wait for the pictures when i get a hold of it . I know i'm nasty but who cares .

On that note , i just don't have the word to describe the math paper attempted . Seriously , i've done my best . Hoping that maths paper 2 will be less tougher . That's the only light out of the tunnel right now to pass maths with . Oh god ! please have mercy . I just need to have a good hold of myself and bear with the current situation for a few more weeks . And after that , bye bye to school books , shoes and here come freedom . And i'm done for the year .

My laughing gas

2008-10-15T20:09:00.006+08:00

At last , i'm blogging ! I guess i have to . A way to release my stress . A word that has been associates with tons of my friends right now . I started mugging already but i'm not sure if anything manage to ooze in . Hope so . This past few weeks has been very busy lately . Hari raya with family and friends , studying , a date with him , studying , play street soccer , late night study with friends , shopping , studying and lots of other things too . A pretty intense week i know . Hais . Tomorrow is our O'level practical paper . A start where we all we've been waiting for . And a step closer to the freedom that i've been waiting for . Let's just bear with it and make the most out of it .

Hari raya dated photos

more pictures will be updated soon .

2008-10-01T03:47:00.002+08:00

Wishing all the muslims out there , SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI ! . Enjoy every moment of this festive season as it marked our successive victory of battling fasting month.

Thanks mas for wasting your time in henna-ing my hand . Hahas .

2008-09-30T03:01:00.005+08:00

Today , marks the end of the holy month . I have learn a lot throughout this month . Temptation is the main platform . It made me recalled the days where me , wafi and shikin would loiter under the block that is situated near a vending machine . We would beforehand bought food . Then , in a very sneaky way , we would eat and drink derive our hearts content . We are so roguish and rascally back then . I can't recalled who's the initiator back then or in a simpler note , the mastermind . But , if i were to place a voting poll here , 100% it would be wafi . Hahas . But , on a sad note i play a part too . Hahas . Shikin you were the 'blur sotong' back then and thus were propagated to do that in terms of 'nafsu'. Hahas . Pitiful luh you . Really miss the olden days .

On a brighter note , HARI RAYA is coming . But , the mood is just not there . O'level is the main cause absolutely and without a doubt , it is . I just have to give way this year to my younger siblings in collecting lots of money . I had my days already . Haiz . It seems that i have to stay at home handling revisions rather than handling money . Even so , this doesn't seems to deter me not to do my hair luh . Decided to do extensions . So what if it's not natural hair !

2008-09-19T01:30:00.007+08:00

I haven't been attending training lately . Whenever i feel like going , something will surely crop up . I feel as though i'm abandoning the team . But , seriously i'm not . Parents nagging and lectures have been buzzing all day long . What can be the topic rather than O' levels . They wanted me to stop going for training and matches for the time being till O' levels are done for the better . I really miss my training grounds and lovely teammates . It is as though i have never seen them for years . This is how i feel even though i'm new in the team . Hoping that you'll will understand my plight . Wishing that the team will continue to be as one and best of lucks for upcoming matches . I will try my very best to come .

Get to hang out with my primary school mates for a reunion . We met at bugis and take a walk to arab street to break our fast . We ordered 2 plate of briyani rice , a large plate of murtabak and 2 egg prata which is very large in size . As we ate along , there were some jokes and chats about the past passing around the table . Laughter filled most of the time throughout . Really had a great time reminiscing about the past especially when we came to our 'kental' moment . After that , we take a stroll at haji lane and survey every shop that is located there . And a long nice cam-whoring journey back home .

say hello to new hair

2008-09-16T00:45:00.003+08:00

I wanted to study physics but i just don't have the mood and will to study . When i just started to flip only a few pages , the book is close shut again . Wandering when i can have the interest back towards physics . It was just a few years back when i was so anxious for Mr Tan to come to class and to start his lesson . And how eager and animated i am upon receiving our test and exam papers . Those days were gone and now i'm stuck with a teacher that is not enliven and totally uninspirational . But , i just have to make the best out of his lesson and make each of it worth coming to school for .

Today at school , as expected , we received some of our papers . I pass my chemistry but i have utterly no hope for physics . So , no point in passing chemistry anyway . My eyes open wide in shocked when i received my maths paper . The bold red colour digit numbers were staring at me as if i dont deserve the marks at all . My last minute revision pays off at i guess . After which , we receive our geog paper . Ms Teo draw a time line to express her feelings and thoughts upon marking our paper . She was very happy indeed with the results in hand . Tomorrow will be another day for me to face other papers results and mind you , it will not be a great day !

Currently , i'm missing him . . . . .

I want an extension pronto !

2008-09-15T02:24:00.008+08:00

I don't know why but i just have the urge to blog . My eyes have been naughty this days .They are reluctant to shut even though its time to . He is sound asleep right now and i don't intend to disturb or woke him up . I'll just stay awake till sahur then . Earlier on , we chatted about his NS thingy . He will serve his duty on 24 october . It was like 1 month away . And i just found out that i'm having my maths o'lvl paper that day . What a coincidence . Thought of sending him go just fade away . I'm gonna miss him badly . Will cherish every moment i had with him from now on . I will feel what anizah feel soon.

I can't wait for the outing that will be in store for me . A date with my primary school friend that is deeply miss . And with my lovely babes this saturday . Its been a long time since we went out and have fun together . Not to forget that he will treat me to a posh dinner since he already got his pay .

Hoping that all will run smoothly

2008-09-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

At last , prelims are over . Thank god the last paper is not so hard after all . Mrs sundram is so loved by me . But , on a sad note , i dont think i can pass my combined science . Physics was utterly horrendous . Mind you , it was a disaster . Mr tan was so cruel to set such difficult paper but he's doing us good anyway . Preparing us for O's . Just mentioning that single word is giving me chills . It just felt wrong after completing prelims , i don't think i have put enough effort on it even though i burn the midnight oil all the way . I need someone to locked me in a room and bombarded me with inspirational lecture . Hahas . But , i realli need a wake up call . I dunno why im slacking rite now . Someone pls help me out !

On a high note , my cousins just called . They wanted me to go for karaoke tmr . Its really just what i needed . A place for me to release my stress that's going to attack me for the next few mnths . Tmr will be a blast as we had so much fun the previous time we go karaoke . It was like a mini concert . My brother were like dancing away . My cousin even take out his shirt and throw it at me . Hahas . It was so hilarious . They tried to tackle songs with high notes but it turn out to be a train wrecked . Especially my brother . It was totally absurd . After tmr's enjoyment i have to get back to revision which is equivalent to boredness . I guess it will be a challenging moment for me in times ahead .